I feel as if I've let my friends down somewhat. Mostly in school and even on MSN I don't feel like talking much, and it's all too easy to slip into a depressing mood in the middle of the day and stone off. I think I'm slowly reverting into my old antisocial self. I don't know if it shows, but sometimes I don't feel any interest in maintaining friendships and it's as if I've thoughtlessly pushed them aside. At the same time, my worst flaws have been manifest, and it's embarrassing to even think of it.

Such moments of clarity are few and far between - tempestuous emotion has taken over my life. I stand ashamed and sorry, and I swear to be a better person.

I sure don't mean to be confusing.